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Name: Melissa
Country: United States
State: Indiana
Metro: South Bend
Birthday: 9/3/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: I love music, languages, I go to the movies alot, and I like just being with friends.
Expertise: Expertise??? well I play the clarinet if that counts.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  bcaramel22
Member Since:
2/21/2005
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| Hi world,
Another random entry...I've been thinking about the future alot lately, as I get ready to study abroad for a semester. My life on the outside appears to be going really well and I should be happy. I ended the semester with much better grades and have continued to maintain some very close friendships. But somehow it still feels like something is missing in my life. And I know have complete control over what happends in my life, but something just doesnt seem to be right. I am a little discouraged at the moment with those that have been coming and going in my life. Even though I know if someone wants to walk out of my life I should give them a hand, because its not worth trying to make them stay. But there is nothing wrong with wanting to care for someone and have it received in return is there? I just dont know...And its not even a complicated scanerio or anything...my life just seems to be at a stand still in this matter.
Alright Im done thinking about it....peace out
QUOTE OF THE DAY: " 'I think we should break up,' he softly said. Those were the words I'd been dreading for months. 'I'm ready to start seeing other people.' My trembling fingers tightened around the phone cord, and I choked back the sob that threatened to explode from my tightening lungs. There was a long awkward pause as he waited for me to speak... The nightmare had come true... again." : An excerpt from When God Writes Your Love Story
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| So I survived the break.... It was really restful, maybe too restful (soooo much to do now!!!!) Things are alot better at the moment. I dont feel like knocking anyone out right now or just plain killing myself. I am still slightly depressed about life and school, but I know this too shall pass. Right now I just thank God for good friends and their support.
Thanks a bunch
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| Hey all!
I havent been on here in ages. I am roundinig out my first semester as a sophomore at saint mary's. Its the sister school right next door to notre dame. Im also in the band at ND!! Amazing! Today was the last game for the seniors so it was pretty emotional for them. All I could think about was being half way done with band...tear. Im really starting to realize that I wont be playing my clarinet forever...kind of sucks. Im sure I will be one of the main ones crying at the end of marching season in '08..I dont even want to think that far ahead. That's not really why I am on here....I guess I just need to vent at the moment.
I have gotten past the angry part for the most part, but now I am dealing with not being bitter about the current situation. I have been seeking God in all that I do and I am working on being a better person and just living my life the way that God would see fit, but sometimes I do fail. I suppose getting past feeling bad when I fail humans is something I need to work on as well...its like no matter what I do, its either not good enough or something is wrong when I try to do the right thing or what I feel is best. I cant do anything right!!!!!
I just cant seem to do anything right or keep people happy.....
I just wanna say screw everyone at the moment....screw everyone who is making life difficult....
Im sick and tired of being at saint marys....I just wanna escape...I dont wanna be there anymore...I have no friends outside of band I might as well be at notre dame....a very big part of me feels like I belong there. I dont fit in over here... Im tired of loneliness in everything...from friendships to relationships with men...Im just sick and tired of being sick and tired...I need God to work a miracle in my life and to restore me back to where he wants me in Him.
I just ask for his grace and mercy in this situation... if I have anymore pressure put on me I will break.
Quote of the day: "God, Coutnry, Notre Dame"
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| Hey All!!
Im pretty sure no one out there is really paying attention to what Im doing now, but Im going to go ahead and write anyway....
Well the year is almost over! I can hardly believe that my freshman year of college is coming to a close. Time just goes by so fast, one minute Im freaking out about being accepted into college and the next Im trying to finish everything up for final exams before summer. Its amazing...this thing called life. I have met and made some pretty incredible friends at SMC and ND. Life isnt perfect, but it's what I have to work with for right now. So I guess I'd better make the best out of it. Well that's enough of my schpill....peace and love my peoples.........
QUOTE OF THE DAY: " I write sins not tragedies." By: Panic! at the disco | | |
| It has been a beautiful week! The birds are singing and life has been brought back to South Bend. I cannot wait for spring break to relax and chill with some buddies from school...It's gonna be a blasty blast!!!
Have a great weekend everyone! 0
QUOTE OF THE DAY: "You know the world is going crazy when the best rapper is a white guy, the best golfer is a black guy, the tallest guy in the NBA is Chinese, the Swiss hold the America's Cup, France is accusing the U.S. of arrogance, Germany doesn't want to go to war, and the three most powerful men in America are named Bush, Dick, and Colon." By: Chris Rock
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